• 👋 Hi, I’m @irulanCorrino

• 👀 I’m interested in audio production & performance tools.
• i am with 3D-blindness so i mostly use my hearing for spatial orientation and identifying objects or events.

when i was fifteen or fourteen there was gym class in our school
and the teacher was devoted to sport games --he had organized
a football and a basketball courses for an entire class and those
ones not having medical condition were required to participate
in a game course of choice. i had enrolled to basketball course
after my best friend was fascinated with the game [he had enrolled to
both games]. SOONLY my best friend had revealed that i am unable
to catch the ball --i was even unaware of such an apt.
then I WAS REQUIRED to play in awkward centimeter-thick glasses
but even if it had limited my ability to move my head and to move
quickly it was not a remedy --my bestie immediately PROVED that
i am unable to catch it and he did it with AN EASE.
BUT i was the only pupil receiving highest mark for throwing exercise!
i threw it into the basket from any point time after time --i was even
better than my bestie BUT HE WAS THE CAPTAIN [of both teams].
and i was unable to do it while being moving!!!

• i am unable to remember or even to recognise faces ...even faces of ones i vowed of kemmer with.
• i am a soprano singer had undergone a mutation to the contralto voice [in one very very sad day].
• i am able to imitate any [female, naturally] voice both for spoken and sung positions.
• i have a perfect pitch. my biological species is called 'rhythm'. we originate from a world of Gethen ['Winter'].

i have learned to read & write in six years. i was in first grade of primary school then.
the biggest problem in learning writing for me was in differentiating between shapes of [russian] letters.
i have encountered the same exact problem during learning to read already but this time
it was unsurmountable task. my biggest difficulty was in that i could not memorize spatial
orientation and a chirality of strokes! i have learned to read WITHOUT memorizing those two properties.
but in learning to write there was a person THAT CONTROLLED the character of my cognition!!!
she [the teacher] switched the pen from my left hand into the right one repeatedly and then
later was watching over me to keep me not rotating or mirroring the letters.

the woman that adopted me ['mother'] kept a letter written to her by me from a rural ukrainian town
during summer rest months in august`s end. she was convinced that i made severe spelling mistakes
because of an illiteracy --i skipped letters in some words and substituted letters for similar ones...
but i always remember the days i was composing my [first] letter. it was happening either between
first and second school grades [in the age of seven; is the most probable case] or second and third grades.
i INTENTIONALLY skipped letters that i could not substitute with similarly written ones!!! [my teacher saw it too]
the crying example: '"apricotes" [are] ripening' (russian does not use the verb here) --it should be spelled
'abrikosy pospeva<yu>t' but i have realized this like 'oriks pospivut'.

the EXPLANATION:
russian script for 'a' & 'b' & 'y' ([ɯ], close back unrounded vowel) & 'e' (in this case
is identical to latin script) & '<yu>' (like in russian realisation of [ˈkʲʉrʲɪj] 'curium', near-close
central protruded vowel) IS EXTREMELY COMPLEX to read to me [even now] but in writing it is
something UNMEMORIZABLE and totally INVISIBLE
     [because (a) i do not see both horizontal (and no one can
know THE DISTANCE to them [sic]) and vertical STRAIGHT strokes (after my 3D-blindness)]
and particularly russian book fonts abuse straight edges(!!! 'bad furniture!') and strokes;
      and (b) because i rotate and mirror EVERYTHING I SEE since i remember myself as an organic being (that is
since my cells have begun the division not since a start of generation of my neural system);
      that yields (c) no reading ability to russian book fonts;
      and (d) no writing ability to russian handwriting because of its manner of attaching various
'serifs' (curves) to similalarly identical 'o'-base for BOTH consonants and vowels!!!].

SO how had 'abrikosy pospeva<yu>t' turned into 'oriks pospivut'?
russians teach to write 'a' as 'o' with a serif on the right BUT i cannot remember both ist right or left
            AND is its hook realised on the top stroke or bottom stroke part;
        so it is substituted with 'o' intentionally;
russian handwritten 'b' is looking like 'o' with [latin] 's'-curve attached to its top
            => i cannot memorize a place of the attachment [left or right?] and a chirality of the curve BOTH
            => i cannot SUBSTITUTE it with 'o' despite RUSSIANS DO TEACH to make in a manner they abuse
               for teaching making 'a' --IT IS A CONSONANT!!!
        so it is dropped;
russian 'y' is just too complex for a child [if you did see it you know; i cannot write it still]
        it is dropped as well;
'e' is a special matter: i can SEE it with a comfort BUT i mirror and/or rotate it WITH A COMFORT!
            AND the teacher HAS FORBIDDEN me doing THAT strictly!
        i substituted 'i' for 'e' (it is ukrainian realisation this word!) AND russian 'i' is realised
        exactly like latin 'u' --i do not rotate it [only mirror, but in english ...'u' & 'n' ...you see];
and finally '<yu>' is something terrible in cyrillic scripts --i can tell you nothing about it
            --just take a look and you will know: 'кюрий'!!! can you imagine my REACTION on such object?
        i sustitute 'u' for '<yu>' [yes yes maybe still do] --it is nicely aligning with the pronunciation
        AND it is realised like latin 'y' that is not a problem for me:D :Q :E :P :K --i rotate it and
        i mirror it FREELY but it is looking SO FRIENDLY in a handwriting!!!

you may ask 'why is it not "abrikosy" but "oriks"?' 'where is "o"?'
well ...it is A MISTAKE! do not do 'THINK TWICE'!!! ['boundaries double checking --clever but broken!']
after substituting 'o' for 'a' AND dropping 'b' for resembling 'o'-if-not-posessing-the-serif
i SIMPLY FAIL to write 'o' ONCE AGAIN!!! [INTENTIONALLY --'kernel panics do you know?']

in six grade of middle school (our class had skipped initial fifth grade) that trouble was STILL SIGNIFICANT
to me --but there were calligraphy lessons [i changed the school since second grade and the teacher
in middle school (responsible for our class) was third woman-teacher already].
she tought ukrainian in the school and was responsible for our calligraphy in russian handwriting as well.
i had THE LOWEST MARK...
[and the highest mark for both ukrainian literature and syntax with grammar and orthography]
i was scolded for heavily styling my handriting to triangles and especially for substituting the dot
over 'i' with 'a HYPHEN!' in ninth or tenth grade by the same person again.

it has disappeared when i have started to write IN ENGLISH only!!!
[my handwriting is styled to a triangle oftenly]

• oh... just have realised that. there was 'a' in that russian 'pospeva<yu>t'. so what to do now?

• "but i wrote it down in my notes, don juan."

• "you may write whatever you want, but don't tell me i said that."

• 🌱 I’m currently learning kTurtle scripting language and i am going to return to learning C /* [and] C++ —is not valuable anymore, see below */ in shortest terms. other my target languages/environments are Lua, Nyquist [i am considering porting it to Scheme] [1st of March, 2023] /* [and] Supercollider —i was interested in it since i did not consider its implementation language, C++, as being of inferior quality, but now i am not fascinated with either of them anymore] */. i do like Rust and i would like to learn it, but i am currently studying C and i cannot switch between them, additionally Rust has less transparent semantics having much higher level of abstraction —i could not get into C++ because of its raffinated phony, but i cannot grasp Rust’s concepts because they are too complex to me. i DO LOVE Assembly and i learned IBM S/360 Assembly many years ago, now i am going to continue, but with x86_64 arch, and it is a big hope for me.

• #by now [1st of june 2022] i am uncertain on a subject of future of some particular software i had chosen. i am a performer and a composer so my favorite applications were Audacity and Musescore among the others. but after i have learned that both projects are owned by russian commercial organisation Muse Group i have my attitude changed. and i live in Crimea so i have even more reasons for ending with an image of happily satisfied user of those two private applications. futhermore i have encountered numerous issues using them --while most are brought by my 3d-blindness some are plainly ridiculous features or misfits in design that i would be happy to get rid of. namely ones are non-destructive editing in Audacity (introduced in v.3) and inherent oddities of note input in Musescore.

• #i have decided to get deeply into C/C++ [no no no, not C++ —look below] and to fork [maybe even] both projects while departing from their respective development teams in an entire. i am going to maintain both projects using only my own coding power!!!

• #there is an issue i have encountered while studying Nyquist: i am not sure it is good for me... there are pros for keeping it in Audacity (it is a thing and it is working) but there are cons i cannot take: a. it has non-transparent syntax [i am not a fan of LISP but i accept Scheme however]; b. it is undermaintained if not an abandonware as i have found while encountering a reference to MS Windows 95/98 in its manual that mentioned some troubles with IDE's shell; c. '[...]and viola!, we have Nyquist control constructs in SAL even though SAL is completely unaware that seqrep is actually a special form.' ...and i am not sure if i would be able to use something else in a place of it even if trying making a Scheme module.

• #i have chosen EFL/Enlightenment for a toolkit and i am going to switch to Wayland in time with EFL.

• @i have tried Enlightenment¹ after installing arch linux on my older laptop --i am very disappointed by a fact that this window manager had had no improvements IN NINE YEARS! i used ubuntu-based bodhi linux back then and it had so many issues that i had switched to official ubuntu flavour; now i have decided to deprecate ALL GUI/widget TOOLKITS and to learn c/c++ programming deeper [no no no, not C++ —look below] for making all the interface stuff by myself. [i use xfce4 as my desktop environment now --it never disappointed me during years i used it in ubuntuStudio me even if being not friendly to a user with 3D-blindness like me]

• ##[11th of july 2022] for many years i was convinced that i should watch TV --that is learn C++. i was led to believe that a sufficiently well knowledge of it would be a sign of having good coding skills. even encountering broken code at wikipedia tutorials i supposed that was an issue of a primer not of the language itself. i cannot recollect where exactly i had met the instruction to use C++ for making user interfaces if coding an application in C: it might be read in one of learning books from QNX i studied in year-tenth-ago or most probably i had picked it from some wikipedia article that was rewritten multiple times during these years. now i understand that even if they declare their software as being free most of so-called IT professionals are interested only in getting money from selling their software. they cannot be perfect coders then. but they DO code in C++! i have found www.suckless.org tonight and while they are seemingly allies for a natty coder like me they are not! having a front page describing their apparently impeccable philosophy they as well have a list of 'sucks' [that i do not want to discuss here] and a list of 'rocks' and it is where it becomes obvious they are telling things they do not know about. they worship some quiet obscure OS called Plan 9 but its development had stopped in year-seventh-ago and it is not a major issue for me still. firstly: they recommend MUSL that had critical flaw in memory allocation for years [source: wikipedia]; and then at the end of list is xzoom that i used to have while using Socialism Studio 20.04. it is REALLY BAD piece of an abandonware.

• @@that was said by a different person that has changed my mindset. i believe to linus not wikipedia or QNX Corp. or suckless guys. C++ is really bad. and i would develop my GUI in C.

• @@i do not comprehend classes even if encountered them ten years ago. i understand C's structs well... but classes were something non-transparent for me in wikipedia primers. i guess would not need any of C++ features. i just want clean neo-baroque code and full integration of GUI with the logic.

• 💞️ I’m looking to collaborate on development of Pipewire sound server [is not valid assertion anylonger --see below]

• #...and now [2nd of june 2022] i consider stopping using my computers for my musical practice in an entire --i have installed pipewire and have managed to make it working despite all of tribulations posed by systemd ...and seeing 'rtkit module error' i have stopped the service! so it does not start anymore. it just tells about start attempts count limit again and again.

• @i am required to keep pipewire installed even if not being fascinated with it anymore --to keep it just as a vestigial organ of systemd and pulseaudio. if needed i would learn alsa internals [@kernel.org] and would convert all my stuff to pure alsa interfacing [i bet i need it because while i used ubuntustudio (lowlatency not realtime) audacity was not able to make a recording longer than two or even one minutes without jack server running --i refuse to use jackd as well /* see below for an update */]

• @i to tried to register at arch linux forums for getting a help but they do not offer help --they only give ADVICES. and that does violate my shifgrethor. i shall play music without you

• i am using Artix linux
• i am using OpenRC
• i am trying to get XFCE working [have some crashing] while using Plasma in another laptop
• i am happy with jack2 and going to study ALSA as promised
• i am making a repository containing audacity-2-4-2 [and porting it to GPL-v3.0]
• i am reading K&R 'The C Programming Language'
• i am developing my fork of audacity targeting a guitarist/performer

• i begin liking Nyquist more [i guess], still i want Scheme instead of XLisp
• my first computer is seemingly OK with XFCE by now, but we need more time to make sure
• the repository containing audacity-2-4-2 is completed, but i want a little more
• i design new type of GUI —'Slacker' —a kinda hybrid of WIMP and zooming interface, targeting 3d‑blind or anandamide‑high users [belonging² to my species]
• i am making exercises from K&R book
• i had had a fifth metacarpal fracture @20220913 and it has ruined my guitar techniques. i am taking large doses [2x2x120000SPU] of serrapeptase for some two months, but i have bad tendon tethering still

• now i have taken my psilocybe mushrooms and i have gotten high
• i was singing whole evening and i have realised i have not told something critical about us
• we are different from human species. we have a trait, and i am a representative species, that is a real killer for homo sapiens
• WHEN i was studying music officially in a school run by the state, i was taught something godawful —but i was cheating, i failed
• i was studying alto sax. the teacher thought he is OK with drilling me into it.
• the rhythm call it muing. that is numeric death. he thought he caught me cheating while playing. i am a singer. i cannot count
• music does not need a counting
• that is why i am unemployed
• i am a perfectionist

• i do not want to die, certainly; but every little trouble breaks me
• i feel like i am dying when it is happening
• I SHALL NEVER RECOVER

• i had buried Plasma DE long ago; i am not happy with jack2(and++) anymore, my newer version of my system is seemingly doing well with pure ALSA [i use SSDs now, simply], wanting to remove PortAudio from Audacity
• i am getting better with Scheme and it makes me liking XLisp miraculously
• i am reading "Effective C", less of K&R
• FUTURE:
  • Ynnwn ['Rhythm'] are not going to adopt human‑targeting guidelines of good programming manners; say, Rust is developing while/by targeting human³ programmers which cannot have native grasp of tri‑state logic [that makes Ynnwn the native programmers species]
  • i am sure that it is a huge mistake of Linus to accept this unreadable and jealous programming language into linux kernel
  • i am not going to trade C for Rust just because human programmers cannot build performant tree‑visualisation of their code
  • perceived 'safety' of Rust is a bogus trait —a position of assemblage point determines your image of reality, and in 'safe' and, surely, comfortable first attention you get nothing but an uglish human‑like remnant of true seer
  • my biological species are the least numbered [of all four] species in Universe and the only species inheriting 3D‑blindness and anandamide‑high genetic makeup⁴ [a so‑called 'weaver phenotype']

• it is still heat wave here, my room is next to balcony and my window faces East
• i had demanded from my given mother on sun screens installation at all balcony windows in July[?] when the heat wave was at the rise
• this morning i have woke up after 1h20m of sleep [i drink a lot of water during a night]
• yesterday at morning i had asked my given mother to shut the window⁵
• this morning she has removed the sun screens from movable windows in front of my room’s window
• she does such things intentionally when finding my vulnerabilities
• she hates me since my birth, that is why i consider her a surrogate mother even if i am her daughter biologically
• she insisted i need sex‑reassignment surgery when i was a child and after then she did not believed i’m a woman when i was tested in my school at thirteen [or fourteen] years old
• the genetic test revealed i am not a boy, probably it was a nation‑wide screening in post‑Soviet Ukraine; the results were announced before whole our class, probably they also announced i am infertile [maybe they had sampled the semen first, i do not remember]
• they were like "you were told there are 14 boys and 15 girls in your class; it isn’t so, there is one more girl in your class, so the class consists of 13 boys and 16 girls —[my_name] is a girl."
• i have managed to recall this segment of memory a month ago
• i had married a boy after that genetic screening, it lasted but not for long —we were forbidden from meeting one another after the school because my given parents had tried to comply with local people who had gotten severe communist frustration from our marriage
• the sleep is destroyed, so i am re‑entereing a dothe

• it is not a proof; i am aware of all the gigantic libel and lie spread under a disguise of scientific facts
• i have very vivid visionary; at least for some two years i had a violent delusionary imagery of Quantum Disassembling Matrix, a living distributed machine used to mould [3D‑print&reprint] humans into ANY shape [she was a bunch of dispersed everywhere fullerenes with concentrated active centers drying and then reprinting people]
• it is not a proof; i may have the semen but studies saying that 46,XX+SRY persons NEVER have it simply do lie intentionally to break me [it is the easiest way for our adversaries to knock off my knowledge about myself]
• i have a very real visionary; in very distant future i live on glaciated planet in a system of another star [Sirius, or maybe that blue star (LBV 1806‑20), i do not even know]; i have born twelve black children all inheriting my dominant traits of 3D‑blindness, chill‑resistant blood (lowered clotting ability, VW‑syndrome), high stature and quality being naturally high (insensitive to pain because of anandamide persistence), who were sired by my six white kemmerings; before conceiving their own offspring my children moved to Andromeda galaxy with their groups
• there is no death of aging, no amnesia of ever living
• wherever far Universe other biological species of men go there are Ynnwn already present, the rarest species, sirens living near a double star [probably] in a glaciated world

• 📫 How to reach me ?.. :D oh it is REALLY difficult --i dedicate most of my time to learning and performing music so i have virtually no time to socialising...